Wow! I can't believe it is 2012! Time has been going by so fast. I just finished making goals for this year and one of my spiritual goals was to go through the devotion, Jesus Calling, every day this year and to blog about it.
As I am relearning about Christ and what it means to have a spiritual walk with my creator, I find that I am being challenged in my quiet moments about one particular issue. To come before God with a positive outlook. I know that might seem so obvious to many, but I am just realizing now that I typically don't come to God with that kind of attitude. I typically just tell him what I would love to see happening, ending with something along the line of, 'but of course, if you don't agree with these things, which I am pretty sure you don't, because looking back at my life, you didn't agree with many things, but whatever, in your name I pray. Gosh, I have much to relearn, don't I?
Today's reading begins by an invitation: Come to me with a teachable spirit, eager to be changed. Lord, I am going to try very hard to have a teachable spirit, desiring to know you like I have never known you before. My goal is to just read everything in this book and just believe it even when I normally would doubt and when my feelings don't match with the fact that I choose to believe. I know that might be a bit crazy, but I just don't know which side is up anymore. I need some absolutes, some boundaries, some connection, direction with the Almighty. I admit that I can't do this by myself anymore. I was wrong!
How appropriate that it goes on to say: Do not cling to old ways as you step into a new year. Instead, seek My face with an open mind, knowing that your journey with Me involves being transformed by the renewing of your mind. As you focus your thoughts on Me, be aware that I am fully attentive to you...I know and understand you completely; My thoughts embrace you in everlasting love! Wow, that's hard to believe, but I choose to even though I don't feel like I do.
I am ready to be changed.